I stepped aside from the frenzy, this relentless stream of attention seeking, the emptiness behind the need of being seen. I steeped aside because i understood that seeking fame and fortune driven by insufficiency in one’s self is not the most meaningful pursuit, for what you have built was founded upon the fear of remaining invisible.
I rather live courageously in anonymity than be a mirror of society’s desires, not to shed blood for a screaming crowd, nor to make a fool of myself for a laugh.
The path of the virtuous is carved by facing our deepest fears, of solitude, death and struggle, it’s our duty to get past it, to arrive at living out of playfulness, curiosity and joy.
Art suffers, relationships suffer and one’s life perspective is fractured when traversed through reactionary efforts, it perpetuates a limited existence, the validation of our most primitive selves.
When i was a kid, there was no purpose to be fulfilled, we lived out of curiosity and adventured, but it comes a point when society convinces you that you must specialize and follow a singular path, through a profession, a calling, it gives you a blueprint of how to live, what you should want and what you should avoid. It’s just society programming you to be a cog in its system for survival.
I did for a time follow that system, but in like any system, there are parts that don’t fit. I always knew deep inside that i was meant to wonder in a different direction.
Later on i decided to be a poet, even though i knew the probability of making a living was nearly zero, but by this time i already understood what i mentioned earlier about the virtue of facing fear, so i carried on. Now i’m about to turn thirty years old and when it comes to the question of life’s ultimate purpose, i think that there is an inherent value in being born, in itself it proves you where meant to live, and for what purpose? You are free to choose.
Out of all of it, i choose fearlessness. To wander in curiosity rather than be petrified and stagnant in fear.
To perish is inevitable, to live fearlessly is to live the most.
